Baby Booties

Last week I received an invitation to a baby shower. I can't attend because it is out of state and the same day as a family event that I have been committed to for many months. The weird thing is the parents to be haven't even told me. We don't talk often, but we have been friends for many many years. I would attend if I could. So even though I learned about this soon to be newborn from someone else, I decided to make a handmade gift and found an adorable pattern for some booties and a hat. I will mail it since I can't be there and send a card. I keep wondering if they are "afraid" to tell me.  I know she is aware that we are TTC. I don't believe she is aware of the diagnosis, although it is possible a mutual friend may have told her. I keep contrasting this to the coworker who literally yelled in my face at the lunch table "I'm pregnant!"  I can't decide which is worse. I don't want my friends to tip toe around me, but I do appreciate those who are at least considerate. I guess insensitive   is worse, but yet not being told is still bothering me. I'm enjoying making the booties and can't wait to get to the hat. I will not make anything for our future baby at this time, but I am definitely wishing that time was here. I want to make booties and hats, sweaters and blankets, even toys! Of course when I am finally blessed with my own sweet baby I probably won't have time to knit.  People talk about the two week weight as being an eternity and I am sure it will be, but this six month wait is so hard too. We have our airline tickets and need to finalize the hotels. A week from now we'll be down to four months to go. In the meantime I will make booties for another.